The Aaron Story

Okay, maybe I’m incapable of being happy…or maybe I know very well what will make me happy and I choose to pass on things that I don’t think will.

Either way, I broke it off with a guy who was sweet, kind, funny, smart, complimentary, respectful…. Why? I don’t really know, it just seemed like the right thing to do. Aaron & I got along great, had lots of fun and tons in common…but I just held back part of me. I think one of the biggest problems was that we started off fast, literally spent every day together for 5 days, and emailed when we were apart…then he left for an 8 day vacation in the woods, where he didn’t have any cell reception and we basically went for 8 days w/o talking. Now…. I do feel confident that if we had been together longer than 5 days we would have made it through, no problem. However, when he came back, there was an adjustment period, and to be honest, even though we started off strong the second time around, I still had reservations. We gave it a shot…and it didn’t work. Well, I didn’t work…if it were up to him we’d still be dating.

Sometimes, just b/c someone looks perfect on paper, it doesn’t mean they’re right for you…no matter how wonderful things are.

Let me clarify a couple things… in talking with a friend of mine, it was determined that Aaron didn’t hold my romantic interest b/c he wasn’t a challenge. This is true. And, he was too nice. This is also true. Finally, he didn’t know how to close the deal. True True True. Aaron & I did NOT sleep together, and not for lack of him wanting to…that was made clear to me. But I just didn’t feel right about it, now I’m glad I waited.

I think if he’d had more balls, been more aggressive (in the good way), and hadn’t been so god damned nice we would have worked. However, CoffeeGirl needs a man who will stand up to her sometimes. As it stands, he’s one of the sweetest guys ever, and I’m casting him back….

Feels Like Christmas Morning…

15 days later & HDDG has re-appeared! Needing a haircut, but as handsome as ever, My True Lust is back at work. After a stressful few weeks (did I mention I dumped Aaron? More later), I had begun to think that maybe I didn’t feel as strongly for HDDG as I once thought. But seeing him again today made my heart skip and my stomach flip. I suddenly couldn’t believe I had made it through two weeks without him. I just wanted to talk to him…ask him where he’d been, how it was, if he’d had fun…I wanted to know what was going on with him. I suddenly felt an extremely overwhelming need to be a part of his life. I patiently waited in line, and when my turn was up, Bingo! I stood in front of him…my knees threatening to give way under me. I flashed him my oft-rehearsed, perfect this-is-a-warm-friendly-smile-but-there-could-be-something-more-to-it…teeth and all. He instantly smiled right back and I leaned in slightly across the counter. He instinctively learned in toward me as well, still grinning. I gave him my order with specific directives…he smiled broadly at me and repeated my order..I nodded in a flirtatous fashion. As he walked away to get my drink, he looked back at me and smiled again. I was on cloud nine!!! I watched while he waited to pour my drink, and he twirled the plastic Dunkin Donuts cup on the palm of his hand! He is so confident and cool!!! Wow! He came back with my drink, put it on the counter in front of me, leaned in and repeated my order again..almost in a whisper. I reached for the cup and his hand was still on it, so I glanced up at him, he was beaming. At this point, I think I blushed. I feel like if we had been the only people in the room he would have kissed me. I know that sounds stupid, and you’re saying it’s just a figment of my imagination…just wishful thinking… However, CoffeeGirl has had many years experience with men and knows that look when she sees it! I think we really made a connection today.

Before I left, I got a good look at his name tag and it reflects a promotion! I almost said something to him about it, but stopped myself. Oh, and I’ve redetermined how old I think he is…originally I said he could be anywhere between 19-29…now I’d say with some certainty he’s probably 25-27. Perfect age for me…I like them a little young!